Dream Home

Have you wondered what kind of family you wish to have once you have a family of your own? Recently I have been talking with a special someone about it in minor details.

So here is somewhat of a draft on what it would be like.

Of course having a house of my own would be a good start. Not too big since it would be a lot of work doing cleaning and stuff. Maybe 3-4 rooms upstairs and 2 more downstairs. Definitely want a big living room. Maybe two long lazy sofa for me and someone else which i am sure will be fully occupied. I don't really mind having a mini water feature inside the living room as sound of water have always been something that is soothing to the soul (Just had one done in my current house). I was told that karaoke is a must. Besides I like singing as well so I wonder who will be hogging on the set more. To bad for the neighbours i guess!

We will also need a decently sized study for at least 2 pc's and probably another laptop for roaming around in the house. Somehow I cannot see life without this gadgets that I think is the best invention ever made. I also imagine a study full of books ranging from romantic love stories to doraemon comic books.

On a personal note, a well equipped kitchen is highly desired. Although I have not been cooking much since coming back home to Malaysia, nevertheless I would definitely want to cook for my loved ones from time to time and on special occasion.

Warning : I assure you the food that I cook are 100% edible. But no worries...I should have at least 3 toilet for my guest disposal.

Knowing me, I would also have TV's scattered around the house. One in the master bedroom, second living room, kitchen and probably at the back garden. Hey we all need entertainment right?

Lets now move to the next topic namely cute cuddly and furry things namely our beloved domesticated pets. I foresee having 2 dogs, maybe a large one like a golden retriever and a small one just for indoors. Not too sure about the small one though since there is so many out there that is way adorable. I was told that we need 6! but if we do it will come under certain conditions..hehe.

That would be all for now. I shall add on to the list as I get along....dream....dream.....dream.........................

My Life Journey

The definition of love comes in many shape, form and sizes. Over the years, I have heard many people talk about this ancient yet fresh terminology that has plagued the human race. Why plague? Because it had caused a lot of hurt but yet we as sentient beings chase after it as if our life depends on it.

My life experience on love has been somewhat vague. Vague in the sense that when I think back things seems far and distant. It may be due to the fact that I have shut out my heart for a long time for other commitments in my life.

My life have always revolved around the people that is dear to me and for the last few years it had been revolving around my family. Friends and family ask me why have I not moved on. I myself ask the same question but deep inside i suspect that I have lost myself or even lost the sense of purpose on what love is all about. The images of previous relationships and the sacrifices that I have made for them and the hurt it had caused me had been a scar that was pretty hard to bear. Up until recently the thought still hold true.

Then came a glimmer of hope late last year. What started off as an innocent conversation blossomed into something unexpected. Unexpected because I have always had many barriers built up around me. For the past few years it had protected me from what I thought was something I am not prepared to do. The rate that my barriers got ravaged was so rapid that my heart lead me on a journey that my brain couldn't. By the time my brain got back to its senses I realised what a great journey I have walked on and I knew my heart was doing what was right for me. My heart was finally opened after so many years of dormancy.

My life in a way has come full circle, in a sense that I now know what to expect and what to hope for in life.

Someone once told me, "one cannot choose what family that he/she is born in but what they can choose is the family that they will be in later in life". I have now seen the path that is laid in front of me. I shall walk along it through thick and thin. I know that one needs to give before they can take. I shall give every effort, heart and soul for this long journey of mine. As I know this path I am walking is the one that I want to take for the rest of my life.......................

Oh my brother...how painful can that be!

Encountered a very painful morning today.

My sister was in a rush this morning cause she was late for my car service appointment. Not knowing which one was the service log book, she threw the whole stack of booklets at me to find it for her while i was actually still half asleep with my blanket still up my neck.

Guess where it hit me...................................?

Ouch!!

What a morning to start my day eh?

Bad Vibes

I woke up this morning having the exact feeling I had yesterday afternoon. A sense of uncertainty, anxiousness, bad premonition all lingering around the air. Not sleeping well yesterday night compounded the bad vibes that I have been receiving this morning.

Many things in my mind that used to be simple and irrelevant now seemed heavy. My temper that is usually not out in the surface seems to be surfacing from time to time. Not had this kind of feeling for a while and whenever its out i feel really uncomfortable.

I have always practice self control most of my life. I try my best to be in control of myself and try not to get my emotions get the better of me but of course not everything goes as plan at times. I guess it may be due to the stress that I have been through this past two weeks.Many things in my mind right now but alas most of them are really out of my control. I can only wish that things will fall into place with time. Latest problem involved my family that I am pretty worried about but something I expected and cannot really change.

Heh....probably its "the time of the month" but this time the Male's version.

I am pretty sure in time this feeling will go away like it always had. Lets hope that it runs its course as fast as it came.

Short Story

Got this off the e-mail. Hope you guys enjoy this short story